6/1/ 08 this is my very first blog.. so I'm fresh meat lol. I pretty much figured I would join just to start getting into writing again .... it's been a while and I do have a lot on my mind .
What brought me to writing my first blog was because I'm starting to feel that I'm feeling tired with the same atmosphere and people . It's like when I meet knew people I get so overly thrilled .. I guess what I'm saying is that I'm feeling like I'm growing out of the old and want to continue with the new. I love people and I want more of a busier atmosphere. I came from a friends house and she had the xbox 360 we were playing uno amongst people all over the world and I was so into it . Not because of the game, but because I was talking on the cam to different people every game set. It was so funny looking at them and talking to them and there were some stupid arguments .. but I loved every minute of it! I know that online stuff is impersonal but it's still some kind of an escape that I need that is new.
I just feel that now that I'm getting older I'm more involved with my interest and I'm sure of myself so I want to mingle with more people like me or just more involvement with people in general. Coming from school where I'm constantly around my peers and more capable to finding people and my kind of scene, to coming back to my hometown where it's so quiet and where majority people I know or come across are following the (monkey see monkey do bandwagon) there's no diversity in character here and it's sooo aggravating, I feel so out of place. I really want to do things like talk and be amongst people but however still be able to maintain my alone time. I don't know what I'm gonna do when I graduate this is gonna drive me crazy !!... I could find a friend and move to where "my life" is BUT! I can't afford it as of yet and I live so close I can stay home and save money to build for moving eventually...but the waiting part sucks !!
